sweating the small stuff.

wassup world.

i feel like that's what she's saying in this picture.

just waiting for her food, chilled out, maxin' and relaxin'.

quite the little life, little girl.

we love love love you.

i feel like we have been going non-stop.

as i'm typing this i feel absolutely exhausted, probably because june didn't take a nap this afternoon. . . she really wanted to but was also so exhausted that she never could quite give it up.

i really stress out when june doesn't take a nap and not because i need time to myself.

i like really stress out.

it's pyscho and i know i shouldn't let it get to me but it is what it is and i continue to stress over it.

i want her to be so rested and happy and it's amazing that she is so incredibly happy 99.99% of the time even on days she manags to get in only one nap.

i hate those days, i feel guilty and responsible for her sleep and well being.
 she on the other hand could care less if she only gets one nap.

my mom and andy both tell me it's' not a big deal.

she'll get naps when she can, she's happy and healthy and 'relax jessica'.

most days our schedule really does allow for her to take three or four naps a day and i really do think that the more she sleeps during the day the better she sleeps at night.

i don't know.

i've got to give it up.

look at this angel girl. . . who cares if she sleeps right?
she's so stinkin' cute and sweet that i honestly do miss her when she is asleep so why am i stressing out!

here's what i've got to decide.

sometimes i feel like we are doing too much.

too much go.

not enough stay.

do you know what i mean?

june loves her naps.

she loves to sleep just like her mommy and daddy.
she does wonderfully at night, puts herself to sleep for naps during the day3 times out of 5 and

 when given the oppurtunity to be on a schedule and get regular naps around the clock she does awesome.

even on days that are 'off-schedule' she does awesome.

i want my life to be very scheduled.

i like routine, i thrive on lists and being organized.

i'm realizng that alot of our life is very unscheduled. . . by choice. . .which is so contradictory to my type a pyscho mama self.

we are traveling, we have places to be and people to see during the day, we have visitors, we have errands, we have just life to live and it's these days that are the most fun of all.
these days where the memories are made and i wouldn't trade them for anything.

i don't want to be a hermit.

i don't want june to be a hermit.

i really do want to be on the go and i just want june to get like six naps a day, just kidding. . .
at least two naps a day.

i'm living the dream at home with my little angel baby,
so i'm sure you want to slap me for even whining about naps.

get a grip jessica.

naps, shwnaps.

i really want to be that mom that's like so laid back,
not a germaphobe and who like doesn't freak out at all at every single head bump
 or dropped paci on the nasty, disgusting floor.

right now i'm that crazy mom that would totally feel ok putting june in a bubble and never letting her out.

 i can just see things getting a whole lot worse as she gets older.

i'm trying to learn how to be a little more 'go with the flow' and a little less sweat the small stuff kind of girl.

because i do sweat the small stuff
and i want to stop.

so here i am.

laid out for all the world to see.
huge confession hour.

i'm a big freak mom that only feeds her child organic baby food
 and like sprints to the sink every single time a paci hits the floor. . .
even in our own home.

proof of my well balanced baby,
laying in her crib,
having the time of her life
 just seconds away from putting herself to sleep
without an ounce of help from me.

why again am i such a freak out?!?

motherhood is the greatest thing on planet earth.

it's also the strangest out of body experience ever.

i know that ultimately none of my stress or worry warts or rinsed off pacis matter one tiny bit.

thankfully, the Lord holds this baby safer in His hands than i ever could so all of my anxiety is a big, fat waste of time and honestly, that really is the sweetest relief for any mama out there.

i pray that every second of her every day is covered with the Lord's mighty hands of protection and love and i rest easier at night knowing that He does cover her.

thank you Lord!

i've learned that being a mommy means you literally ache, like your whole body hurts because you love these little people so much.

it's wonderful, so very wonderful.

naps or no naps.

schedules or no schedules.

my love overflows,

over and over again

whether we are booked solid busy or just hanging out around the house.

both are good,

both are necesary

 and if you're still reading know that this was very theraputic for me so thanks for hanigng in there.

maybe tomorow i'll wake up a a totally relaxed,

chilled out,

non-sweaty mom.

we can only hope!

:)

spring time love.

these are all pretty much just a showcase of our sweetest love.

you truly are the light of our lives little girl.

junie bear.

darling girl.

my little love.

june cub.

precious girl.

little angel.

sweetest love.

little pumpkin.

stinker girl.

precious love.

junebug.

baby june.

my darling.

we love calling you all of these names.

you are so dear to us!

hodge podge.

here's a hodge podge of our latest happenings.

we have started june on some real life baby food and sweet girl doesn't just love food like her mama and daddy just yet.

i know she's got it in her for she comes from a long line of food lovers so we're still waiting for her to turn the corner and realize that food can be her best friend.

so pathetic huh?

this was her very first reaction to applesauce, followed by gagging and acting disgusted the entire time.
don't get it. :)

she also has been wrapping her mind around using a sippy cup for water and has taken to that like a champ!

hooray!

last tuesday we went down to our neighbor/cousin's house for a little playtime.

june was so proud to show off her rolling over trick and her cousins were very impressed.

sweetest kids ever.

check out our little grandma baby in her jean shorts.

i think she looks hystericaly cute.

the only time jean shorts are ever allowed.

andy surprised me last week with a new pair of cutie toms.

can i just say those are the best mom shoes ever?

it was the sweetest thought and june loved the box.

thank you andy for being such a thoughful and sweet husband.

you always know how to love your girls.

still so stinkin' excited about her newest bathing suit and i must say she is so stinkin' cute.

seriously what did we do before camera phones?

i am loving mine more than ever, talk about a well documented little life this little love leads.

it's just the absolute best.

park playdate!

we met our buddy luke hamon last friday for a little park playdate

and had the best time ever at quite possibly the cutest park that ever was!

it was the most gorgeous day outside

so i don't know why i decided to dress june in long sleeves and pants,

poor girl was burning up

but she still had such a blast with her new little buddy

and we can't wait for more fun this week!

how ridiculous is her hat?

cute girl.

and look at this little stud muffin. . .

 luke is adorable

and his mama is so sweet

and we are so excited to have new pals to play with during the day.

hope y'all are having some fun wtih little buddies at great parks too!

those are our best kind of days.

six months whoa!

you, my angel, have turned six months old right before our eyes.

you are still perfect in every way and we cannot believe you are half a year old.

i remember thinking when you were just six days old that when we got to this age you were going to be so big and such a different baby.

it's true you are so big and so different and even more wonderful.

at your well visit this month you weighed 17 pounds even and are 27 inches long, 70th percentile for weight and 90th percentile for height.

i think you are going to be tall like your daddy.

daddy and i try to guess how much you weigh at every appointment and this time we were dead on.
your shots were heartbreaking as usual but i held it together this time, so we were both big, brave girls.
way to go!
we talked alot at your appointment about solid food.
you have been loving your cereal more than ever so he gave us the go ahead to give you some fruits and veggies and i was so pumped.
you are getting used to it but didn't just love it right away.
i know with time you will be lappin it up like a little puppy dog.
we also chatted some about how you are not too fond of bottles or formula.
i am starting to realize that i cannot nurse you forever, although we both love it so.
daddy thinks i am addicted to it and maybe he's right. . . i love nursing you.
we'll see if i'm still whistling the same tune once you get your first tooth.
:)

you are a funny little girl and we are in love with your little personality.

you are so happy and so sweet and just love to be with us at all times.

you are rolling every which way and scoot around in circles on your belly to play with your toys.

you are a nosey little girl and want in on all the action and want to see and touch everything in sight.

you will practically break your back to get or even look at something you have your heart set on.

we love your curious little self.

sweet angel love, you have become quite the little stinker at bedtime and naptime.

gone are the days of  swaddling you, laying you down and walking away.

you want to be loved on until the very last possible second and we honestly don't mind it a bit.

you are so funny and dramatic when you are falling asleep.

you make the most pathetic little moan while your eyes are getting heavy, we can't help but laugh at you.

you are waking up one time at night to eat and fall right back to sleep and then usually wake up when daddy leaves for work.

we play a bit and you are ready for a morning nap pretty soon.

you are still taking two sometimes three naps a day and once you get sleepy and comfortable you could sleep for days.

the love we have for you little girl makes our hearts literallly ache.

you are so perfect and adorable and we prasie the Lord for your little soul.

we love you more than you'll ever know.

your smiles make our days and

you little sounds melt our hearts.

you are the most precious thing out there and we couldn't do this life without you.

one of my very most favorite things you are doing right now is putting both of your hands on my cheeks and pulling me into your face.

you want to kiss me dead on the mouth and i let you do it everytime.

please don't ever stop doing that!

your kisses make my heart beat.

you are truly a little angel.

i love you more than life itself.

entertainment.

we've busted out all the good stuff for this baby girl lately.

we were blessed with some wonderful gifts when we were anxiously awaiting for this doll to arrive and we are finally getting to put them all to good use.

she is loving life more than ever!

i think we would have all saved a few bucks if we would have known how entertained she is by a measly little water bottle.

i don't want to say that it's her favorite but. . .

it's her favorite toy.

i am destined to find her something else that she will equally give her heart to.

we'll see if i can do it!

who am i kidding, i think i'll let her do just about whatever she wants at this stage and if that's playing with a water bottle then have at it sweet angel love.

daddy and i will buy you all the water bottles in the world.